Thousands of beautiful humans have been following my Instagram account @lealovewriter, where I’ve posted daily quotes to feed our souls. I’ve been using my blog for the past couple of years as an outlet to write about my experiences with intimate partner violence. My internal closets have been cleaned out of the pain I’d stuffed away from the one relationship that dramatically altered my life. And when I mean dramatic, I mean DRAMATIC (I’ve written a memoir and I’m currently looking for an agent and publisher).
How did I reconcile the trauma that was inflicted on me? How did I heal the psychic and energetic wounds from my past? How did I overcome issues of trust, low self-esteem, judgmental thoughts, or self-sabotaging behaviors and patterns? What modalities of healing are out there for survivors? I’m eager and enthusiastic to walk you down my healing path. Let me show you what has helped me. Maybe it will help you too.
Tarot has been the guiding light in my life since my early twenties.
It started with a tiny, playful deck I found at a metaphysical store in my hometown. I pulled a card for fun and read its sweet message each morning. Next, I bought the traditional Rider-Waite deck in the bright yellow box to learn the basics of readings, but I felt the deck was a bit tedious and traditional in its explanations, and I soon grew bored with the card’s images. One year I was gifted two boxes of tarot cards – Motherpeace and Daughters of the Moon. These round decks were gloriously female-centered and feminist, and made me fall in love with intuitive readings. They helped me to tune into my inner-most being and understand my spirit. They taught me to trust my heart and gut. They helped me hone my intuition.
For years I only owned and used one deck at a time. It helped me to fully tap into the energy of the tarot cards, to learn their nuances and interpretations. All tarot decks and oracle cards have their own vibe. I realized that at different times in my life I was drawn to different decks. Originally, I would burn my old deck to make way for my new deck. Now I hold on to all my tarot decks, and they call to me when I need to use them. I have an inner knowing when it’s time to put away one deck and move on to another. Each deck has its own unique time of use.
I gave readings to myself when I had a yes or no question and needed an answer. I gave readings to myself to understand my past, present, and future. I gave readings to myself when I needed guidance in my life. Intuitive readings have alerted me to danger, helped me overcome obstacles and challenges, gave me a heads up when I needed to be more present, gave me strength, showed me the way to joy and happiness and love, and pointed me to the right path (even if sometimes I didn’t take it).
Tarot has always been there for me through the sad, scary, and difficult times of my life as well as the hopeful, exciting, passionate times of my life. I use tarot and oracle cards to help me bridge the space between me and the rest of the Universe, and to help me be an open channel to my ancestors, angels, and guides. The cards are always correct whether I believe them to be or not.
I’ve now read cards for myself and others for over twenty years. They’re my daily spiritual practice for healing and growth.
Here is some of my collection of tarot cards:
Russian Gypsy Fortune Telling Cards by Svetlana Alexandrovna Touchkoff
The Good Tarot/Wisdom of the Oracle/The Crystal Spirits by Colette Baron-Reid
The Starseed Oracle/The Rose Oracle by Rebecca Campbell
White Light Oracle by Alana Fairchild
The Spirit of Herbs by Candis Cantin and Michael Tierra
Medicine Cards by Jamie Sams and David Carson
The Light Seers Tarot by Chris-Anne
Moonology by Yasmin Boland
The Answer is Simple by Sonia Choquette
Osho Zen Tarot by Osho
-In love and light and sisterhood